The ex-fiancée of Jason Collins and former WNBA player, Carolyn Moos, is opening up about her ex and how shocked she was to find out he was gay.

“It’s very emotional for me as a woman to have invested [eight] years in my dream to have a husband, soul mate, and best friend in him. So this is all hard to understand,” Moos told TMZ. “I care about [Jason] tremendously and only want the best for him. I want Jason to be happy for a lifetime and stay true to who he really is, inside and out.”

Moos and Collins dated and was even engaged until 2009 when Collins broke off the engagement. But when Collins broke off the engagement he never let on that it was because he was gay, Moos didn’t learn of that until almost a week ago.

“I had to sit down,” Moos, now a personal trainer and nutritional consultant, told ESPN. “I was shocked. There’s no words to really describe my reaction. … But this does alleviate some of the pain. … I’m so happy for him. He deserves to live the life he wants.”

Moos shared that after she found out she had a range of emotions, everything from “hurt, confusion and embarrassment”, but now she says it’s all about supporting her friend.

Your Jersey Girlfriend,

Marcelle English